Just "BE"

I had one of those epiphany moments at my therapy session recently. One of those moments where you realize something profound that changes the way you see yourself and the world around you. You probably could hear the "pop" of me pulling my head out of the sand and seeing the light for the first time in ages.

You see I spent a good chunk of my life searching for something. Searching for a purpose, my purpose...my reason for being here. As if I had to prove my worth to exist on this planet. Funny thing is, I could never stand other people who HAD to have a goal, a purpose, a direction. I mean having those things is great! Don't get me wrong. It's when it becomes an obsession and a person can never be happy with just "being".

I know so many people who are always running their lives at break neck speeds, never stopping, never enjoying the beauty of everyday life. So focused on their goals and not failing that they let time, people, love, and joy pass them by. So what if you fail! It's the journey there, the experiences that count. I have always been surrounded by people who had to have a purpose, a career, a major life goal, and those same people would look down on me because I really didn't know what I wanted. I had no real goal. I just wanted to be happy!

And that is the epiphany - what if my purpose on this earth is just that...to be happy? To be my Mom to my little boy? To cherish those special moments, appreciate the little things. To be happy within and let my inner light glow and spread to all those I touch in life. Even if it is only to make a stranger I pass in the street smile by saying hello! Even better...let people bask in the glow of my own inner peace and happiness! And in turn they look within and realize something special about themselves, and they smile, and continue the process of passing on that little gift....now THAT is wonderful purpose. And the great thing is...I don't have to sacrifice my life, happiness, stability to do this. I don't have to rush, fret, stress, or worry about failing!

All I have to do is BE....